Missing Bean

I'm missing my sister terribly lately. Jake is working late tonight which usually doesn't bother me much since I work late too, but Tuesdays are my day off so I'm home, bored and alone and the first person that pops into my head for company is two states away. So plan B, I try a few friends but it is a rather lackluster attempt on my part.

"Nothing beats a friend like a sister"
- Me

I keep having this feeling, every time I'm with my family and she's not with us, like I'm expecting her to come in the door with her yappy dog any minute but she never comes. It's almost like I'm holding my subconscious breath and never being able to let it out.
The longest we've ever been apart has been 2 months and 16 days. Today only 1 month and 17 days have past since last I saw her, but I think the reality of not getting to see her again until October is weighing on me. Maybe its her cancer diagnosis. Maybe its just my out of whack hormones. Maybe its even living with Jake's sisters, making me realize how foreign they seem to me and how much I miss the comfort and familiarity of Bean.
Not knocking my older sis, 15 minutes away, but even she knows we don't share the same type of bond. Of course the recent addition of husbands means Bean and I will never have the same relationship again and maybe that too is making me sad. Loss of the past and a future that won't be. Sorry this has been emo but what good are blogs if not to vent?

Summer... FINALLY!

Oh summer, how do I love thee? Let me count the ways:

1. Heat. Blessed heat, please sink into my bones.
2. SUNSHINE that which giveth the heat.
3. Longer days. Being outside 9 pm and the sun's barely setting.
4. BBQs. What's not to love about food?
5. Swimming, cools you off plus is great low impact excercise!
6. Camping, can involve all afore mentioned plus THE GREAT OUTDOORS
7. My birthday... just cause my being born is cool.

Speaking of which, Jake knows what he's getting me for my upcoming 2-5. Yet he didn't ask me what I wanted and I sure didn't tell him anything, so I have no clue what it could be? Of course he did this same thing last year also and ended up getting me all the Harry Potter movies, so maybe I shouldn't worry too much.

Anyway I traded shifts so that I can go to a concert (one of my favs, Mates of States) on Monday night then Tuesday night is the Eclipse midnight showing!! Going with Crystal and Taylor again and Tori is also coming this year. It will be lots of fun and we're all excited about it. I don't feel like a dork about it either cause there is probably about THREE MILLION or more people who are crazier Twilight fans than I so... yeah! Good thing I don't work til 11:30 on Wednesday so I can sleep in. Well actually I sleep in everyday anyway. I guess I should say good thing I'm used to staying up late.

Also next weekend is **4th of July** weekend so I'm excited but kinda bummed because my work wouldn't let me off early on July 3rd which is when our family bbq is. Hopefully its slower than expected and they end up letting me leave. Did I mention I love BBQs? Seriously some of my favorite foods. Hot dogs, chezburgs, anything grilled really but not ribs, deviled eggs, varieties of salads (pasta, potato, fruit, jell-o, mixed green) I'll take them all, thx, oh and a Popsicle.

Testing 1...2... check check

Is this thing on? Hmm not too sure about blogging but it seems to be the new to-do. So let's give 'er a go, shall we? My birth given name is Crystal but starting in high school many of my friends started calling me Chuck. This mainly was due to the fact that we already had a Crystal in the group and this avoided confusion and we didn't have to be referred to as "good Crystal" (Yes that was me) and "bad Crystal". I don't really think of myself as much of a talker since I'm pretty introverted but I guess this is a little different. You just get to go off and no one can really interrupt you or talk over you. I haven't got the whole cool template thing down yet. Also the reason why this isn't a "Crystal & Jake" blog is because its always the wife writing anyway right? And pretty sure Jake will never look at this. But I'll try and keep updated on him, too. Anyway nothing much to report today. Signing off.