Today was a productive day for me. I went to the D.I., the bread store, cleaned out and windexed -?- my car (its become a disaster since Jake's been driving it) and weeded the other half of my garden- the half that was so terrible I called it my forest of weeds and cried just thinking of having to pull them- but it had to be done, and now it is! Plus a load of laundry! And taking care of baby the whole day, of course! I do wish the bread store was closer, its so much cheaper than the grocery store but I just hate driving clear over there unless I'm already out that way, such as at the D.I. Speaking of, here are my finds, totaling $10:
New shirt for husband. It really is SO HARD to find shirts that he fits into. He just needs to lose enough weight to fit into at least XXL or better yet XL! Anyway after looking through a ton of racks I finally found a not hideous 3XL shirt. I think Jake looks nice in button ups. :)
And for my closet lighthouse obsession... jk I just needed a cheap frame for a project I hope to finish soon! Its one I started 6 years ago!! But that's another post...
And 3 cute vases... not sure exactly what I'm going to do with them, but I got a few ideas floating around.
On a much more exiting note: MY SISTER IS ON HER WAY RIGHT NOW!!!!! They're driving thru the night and should be here by noon-ish! Okay technically I saw her less than 5 months ago... but that is still too long ago! And we haven't seen Josh since New Years. He is bringing his computer so its gonna be LAN central downstairs again. Jake is thrilled. Boys and their games... wait I play games with Bean too. There is no hope for Baby E, he will be a geeky gamer. Its in his genes from both sides. Hmm I wonder if me playing computer games was one of the things that first made Jake like me? I'll have to ask him.
Also, been thinking Halloween (its my favorite so I start a few months early) and costumes this year, probably gonna go with...
VIKINGS!
I know, you're jealous and wish YOU had thought of that first. I don't wanna give too much away... but it's gonna be pretty epic. Most babies dress up like adorable monkeys or bumble bees something that makes you go AWWW! but I think making people say "That is one awesome warrior baby!" will be a little more gratifying.
Well I have to say I'm proud of my blogging this month! Already 4 posts, that's more than my whole 2010! I'm on a roll, hopefully one I can keep up! Until next time...
Well my 26th birthday has come and gone. This means I'm on the downward slope towards 50... that's really weird to think about. Since my birthday fell on a Thursday and Jake had to work we didn't do anything really fun that day. Went to lunch together is pretty much it and my parents took me out to Chinese that evening while Jake slept. Anyway the final Harry Potter movie came out the day after my birthday and because I love HP dearly, we of course went that afternoon.We being Jake, my parents, Season, both grandmas, and myself. Also because I'm crazy, I had to wear my HP garb! The shirt I made the night before. It's the symbol of the Deathly Hallows, then one arm has "HP" in the lightning bolt style of the title, and the other arm says 7-15-11. Then I wore my scarf I got a few years ago when I was Hermione for Halloween, and I wore my Hogwarts House bracelets. I LOVED the movie and it totally made me cry, just like I did when I read the book. Then later that night we had our friends over for a party and fire. I love S'mores! But I didn't get any pictures of that :( Overall it was a good birthday!
And since I can't NOT post anything about our baby boy here is some pics of him :) He absolutely LOVES his Cookie Monster! 
He also LOVES to play with/eat his feet!
Helping mom with some laundry... He sure looks chubby in this one!
And he always wants to drink what Mommy has, so I give him the empty can to pretend with...
Here is one last one. I thought this was a cute "Me & Daddy" pic.
Hello again, here's the latest and greatest in our world. I changed a few things on the blog, I went ahead and added Jake and Evan to my header, even though neither one will be posting or reading this blog, they are still subjects of most the posts so I decided they can be included.
I'm LOVING my time home with Evan. He is getting so big now and heavy! He is one solid little baby. He loves playing with his feet and has just within the past few days figured out how to stick out his tongue. Still trying to learn rolling over. He is getting pretty good at sitting on his own for a few seconds before he either slumps forward or rolls off to a side. He has one tooth on the bottom. It just cut so I want to wait til its showing more before I get a picture of it, but here is a pretty recent one.
The job hunt still goes on for me, which brings me to my subject today. I was at the unemployment office enrolling in a program and the guy helping me asked "What are your long term career goals?" to which I replied "I don't want a long term career, I eventually want to be able to stay home and raise my family." So since I am getting that short opportunity right now, I should be giving it my all, enjoying it while I can, right? Well I'm not.
I don't clean as often as I should, I rarely cook, the laundry piles are all too big. I have a lot of rationalizations for these. Back when I first got married, it was I work full time and get home at 9 PM, I don't know about you, but you really don't want to do much cleaning after 9pm and we were living at my in-laws so we didn't really have much to clean but our room and bathroom. Plus at that time Jake was working nights and would usually get home around 11pm, so I was off the hook as far as dinner went.
But now with no job, I have the time to do all those things, plus the fact that I am in my own house now. Of course I could say the baby is now taking up all that time. Which he, of course, does take up a lot of time, but not the whole day.
Jake really likes when I make him dinner (at 3pm) so he doesn't have to go to bed on an empty stomach. I guess I'm just not in the habit of having to cook every day so its not something I'm very good at but I'm going to start to try harder to meal plan.
Another reason I think I don't get much done is when Jake goes to bed, from 4pm to midnight, I take that time to just hang out in the nursery with Evan. We have Jake's laptop in there so I'll Facebook or we watch shows online or play little baby games (peek-a-boo, patty cake). Then once Jake gets up we move into our room and Evan sleeps next to me on the big bed-- I found its so much easier than having him in the other room or even in the bassinet. Then we stay in bed til Jake comes home.
So really, I have 5 hours to do stuff when Jake is home and able to help watch baby. 5 hours!! I could do so much more than I am.
I'm not even being too hard on myself, not like I do absolutely NOTHING all day and I don't expect my house to be spotless all the time. I just feel like I can be BETTER at being a stay at home mom and wife. So I made a list (cause when I write stuff down it has 80% better chance of actually happening) of chores for different days of the week. I think if I can at least do one chore every day plus make Jake dinner I'll start feeling more accomplished and maybe my laundry piles will get smaller ;) and Jake will be glad he has me for a wife!
Of course he never says anything about me being a bad wife, but he could care less how often the floor gets vacuumed or if his shirts are hung up. This is a guy who uses a sock to clean up something he spilled on the floor because its closer than getting a paper towel... sigh.
Anyway, just a little rant of self motivation for me to try harder! :) Until next time...
Okay so I know I said I was going to be better at blogging, but I guess I still haven't got the hang of it yet. My two sister-in-laws both have such cute blogs and are always updating them. I might have to have them help me out with mine. ;)Anyway #1 most important: EVAN IS HERE!!!!
Here's the details on his arrival:Well I had a doctors appointment on Feb 22nd, which was my ultrasound due date, but the dr said I wasn't progressed enough to be induced, so I was super bummed but there wasn't anything I could do about it. Well as the week went on and it still seemed like he wasn't wanting to come, I was getting more anxious. So I looked online for any advice to get labor started. I had already tried the most common advice, walking and ... well sex, which did not seem to make any difference. So I read about castor oil, which is generally used as a laxative, also helping labor begin. I thought it couldn't hurt to try it, so I made Jake take me to Walmart to get some. Now it was OIL so it wasn't the most pleasant to drink but I mixed it with some juice so it wasn't as bad. I took it at 10pm on Friday Feb 25th, thinking that by morning, which was my original due date, it should kick in, IF it was going to work at all. Well 4am I wake up to go to the bathroom and I kinda have what feels like period cramps. I go lay back down, but I notice that the cramping is coming and going pretty consistently and I think... are these contractions? So I had downloaded a contraction timer app on my phone so I start to time them and they're coming about every 4-6 minutes. Which is when they say you should go to the hospital when they get that close, but they weren't very painful and I was afraid they were false labor so I waited it out until 6am and they hadn't let up so I wake up Jake and tell him "It's time" just like all the cliche' movies. haha So we get to the hospital and I'm put in a room at around 7am. They tell me they're going to just observe me for an hour, so we wait and the contractions keep coming but after an hour they checked my cervix again and said I haven't changed so I was afraid they were going to send me home but after talking to my doctor they decided to admit me and induce my labor. Yay!! So since we know we're definitely having a baby today I tell Jake NOW we can call family and let them know. So they put in the IV and by 11am I got my epidural, which was just FANTASTIC! About 20 minutes before the anesthesiologist got there the contractions got A LOT stronger and more painful. I don't know why anyone would be crazy enough to do it natural. My mom, dad, and Season came to the hospital, and so did Jake's family. They broke my water at about 1:30 and that seemed to really get the ball rolling. I went from 5cm dilated to 9cm in half an hour and a little while later, after 40 minutes of actual pushing we had our precious 7lb 14oz baby boy at 4:32pm. I didn't think I would cry but after he was out, it was such a rush of relief and joy and hormones I did let loose a few tears.
After 2 days in the hospital, with lots of visitors, both mom and baby were released home. At his two week check-up he had gained 13 oz and grew an inch! Guess all that pain during breastfeeding the first week was worth it. And it really was more painful than labor was. I'm so glad I didn't give up on it, even though I seriously considered a bottle more than once. Bean flew in from Cali on March 3 and left March 9, since Jake would be returning to work. She was such a help with laundry and dishes, and occasionally changing a diaper, though she mostly left that duty to me. haha
It still feels so surreal almost a month later, but I can't say how grateful I feel to have a beautiful baby and he is healthy, all ten fingers and toes. While he may have flaws to me he is perfect. I probably kiss his little baby face 100 times a day and tell him "momma loves you" even when he's crying. I love that I get to be with him all day and hope Jake doesn't feel like he is missing out. He is such a good dad, even when he is gone from 6am til 11pm, going to both jobs and school, to provide for us. He will still change diapers or watch him so that I can sleep or shower or just have some me time. I just am so excited for our little family and can't wait to see Evan grow and become his own little person.
Well, I had my baby shower on Saturday. It was fun and so glad so many people could make it. Of course I HAD my camera but failed to remember to take any pictures. :( So I'll have to steal them off my mom's camera when I get a chance. Guess now that the shower is over it really is countdown time! My dad is going out of country to Denmark again from the 12th to the 19th, and bestie Crystal Moeller is going to be gone from the 14th thru the 18th. So I'm pretty sure that's when he'll end up coming haha.
At my last doctors appointment I was 80% effaced and 1 cm dilated, so things are going the right direction. Kind of makes me nervous like I need to get his room done STAT! I've been procrastinating that because I can't decide if I want to paint it and what color. Well I DO want to paint but its more like if I have the ambition to actually do it. Right now his room is awful yellow color, which is gender neutral and I could keep it but I just don't like it so much. We'll see.
Jake is getting anxious. He always gets anxiety over big things and he is just like "The sooner he comes the better" and I tell him "Be patient, he'll come when he's ready" but its the building up that gets to him, so the longer it takes the more anxious he gets. I can't wait to see my big strong husband holding our teeny tiny son. I think he might cry. I might cry. I tend not to be very emotional, but having a baby is something special, so I just might.
Bean is going to come down beginning of March to help me out and see her first nephew. So I'm of course excited to get to see her so soon after the last time they came down. Aurelia also is so excited to have a cousin finally. She held Crystal's baby Porter at the shower and like after 5 seconds she was like "Okay too heavy for me" but I'm sure she'll love him so much.
Well I'll try to post again at least once before he comes, hopefully.
Turns out I'm not so good at this "keeping up the blog" business. Which is odd since I'm constantly online. I think now that I'll be home more I'll be better at it. Oh so catching up...We bought a house and moved in December (long, painful process) ...Bean & Josh came down and stayed with us for the holidays. I am currently 36.5 weeks pregnant, so baby Evan should be arriving within a month!I got laid off from my job. :( Friday is my last day, hence why I'll be home more. Jake is almost done with his A+ Certification and also started a new job. He'll still be working weekends at Graywhale. Since its so close to when baby will get here, we've decided its not worth me trying to find another job when I'll just have to take time off for maternity leave. So we'll just have to make it work for the time being on Jake's salary. Gosh it really makes me feel like an adult: house, baby, jobs...Well now that you're caught up...I'm not ready for this baby to come yet. Not like ready meaning prepared, though that also applies since his room is still not finished, nor his crib put together.But I mean everyone says 3rd Trimester is the worst and longest and you just want it to be over and done. Not me. I'm absolutely fine staying pregnant. I don't feel extremely huge, I feel like I am just sized right for 8 months. While there are "annoyances" I can say this pregnancy has been easy peasy. First trimester, very minimal morning sickness, I think I only "got sick" 3 times and avoided hamburgers like the plague. Second Trimester, appetite returned (probably why I ended up gaining most my weight here) only complaint was I pulled my groin muscle... not pleasant. And so far the worst third is bringing is some AWFUL heartburn, (he better have tons of hair) and some slight swelling of my fingers and cankles. Oh and the appearance of stretch marks on the belly, which I think can't be avoided really. Thought I did try my hardest by using those special lotions. But overall I have enjoyed this pregnancy and feel like I could continue being pregnant another month without complaint... but I guess we'll see how I feel once I hit the 40 week mark. Just cross fingers he comes on time since my insurance ends with my severance. I am now going to see the doctor weekly. My last appointment I was 25% effaced and his head was very low, which she said will help stretch the cervix. So we're definitely at a start, we'll see what the next few weeks bring. :)
